Eintrag 19.08.2008

inside.

it hates me.
it's in me.
it learned to consume me.
and kill me.
because it hates me.
as much as i hate it.
it's me.
my body.
my heart . non existent.
my soul . no word such as 'soul'.
it's gonna hatch.
it's gonna eat me.
from inside out.
and it's gonna kill me.
gonna kill me.
it's deep inside me.
deep inside me.
deep inside my body.
yeah, it's deep in my head.
in my womb.
it's gonna drill a way out.
through my body,
through my bones.
it's gonna learn to be me.
it's gonna be me.
i won't be anymore.
it's gonna be me.
yeah, deep inside my body.
deep inside my body.
it's so deep inside me.
my tears don't even reach there.
it's cold there.
it's dark there.
no ones there.
only the thing.
the thing without love.
it just hates, but never cries.
it never complains, but holds grudges.
it doesn't believe in anything, not even in death.
it doesn't know a thing.
but it knows everything.